So for a bit of context I am a relatively active person in the chrono.gg forums I made this alt because I don’t want my main associated with this. I come to this form mainly to talk about games not my “Feelings” or whatever. With that being said I have had some problems in my personal life and I want to see if anyone has had the same experience/I just need to vent.
First of all, I do online school I do this for 3 Reasons 1. I hate traditional school, waking up early every morning having to deal with jerk teachers and all that jazz is not the type of thing for me 2. Without getting in to specifics with the program I’m in if I stay on this path I will have some good college opportunities in the future 3. With my parents job the way it is right now it is way easier to do online school. Overall I like doing school the way I do except for one thing, Friends at this point I really don’t have any. I Had some friends over the past few years that I have gotten really close with that I met back when I did go to school (they did go to a different school then me though) and they have been my main group of friends over the past 3 or so years but we are starting to grow farther and farther apart. One of my friends I still talk to a good bit but we have changed a lot personality wise and I don’t think that long term we will stay as good of friends as we are/have been. My other friend has slowly started to fade away to the point where now (and it has been this way for a good few months) it is radio silence from her for about a week at a time then we talk/play video games a bit and then another week of nothing. This has all culminated to a few weeks ago we went to this camp with the plan of hanging out all week (the 3 of us) and she diched me and my other friend for the ENTIRE WEEK like out of the around 150 hours we where there (it is around 6 days) me we only saw her no more then 3 hours over the course of the week. And over the course of 2019 because of this my mental health has degraded and I am almost always feeling down/depressed. I have lucked out a little bit because I met some people I kept In Touch with from another camp that I did and they live closer to me but its still driving distance from me and I don’t have a drivers license yet (I’m getting one next year) but till then they are still just some more online friends. I just realized that this is almost 500 words and I should probably wrap this up. I don’t really know the thesis of this but I feel like I needed to type what I have been feeling down and have some people look at it. If you need some more clarification on anything let me know and if you have any tips on how to get passed this also let me know.
ALSO: I am moving again soon (me move back and fourth to the same few places for a couple of reasons not important to this) and my parents said that they are going to try to get me more involved in stuff witch I am happy about and I’m hoping to find some friends there but if I don’t I honestly have no clue what I am going to do for the next half a year or so.